A lost boy in the jungle

A lost boy, lost his way in the flower garden.

He was enjoying staying around in this beautiful place but when he goes deep down, found out that the beautiful flower garden became a jungle.  Here’s a mess. How could I go away from this jungle? , a boy thought.

A jungle sighs. Thought about the past, she was a beautiful flower garden but something changed. She got into a trap. She became a jungle since.

A boy’s scared. But a jungle didn’t mean to scare him. She’s scared too. She was beautiful but now it’s a mess. She tried to help but the more she helps, the more she scaring him.

A jungle, he thought. Horrible. I don’t wanna live my life in the jungle. How could I get out of here? ; said a boy.

Just an appearance, inside is still beautiful, please don’t be scare. If you don’t know what to do, just stay here. In a mess, there’s a calm ; said a jungle.

But it’s doesn’t matter.

He insisted. He’s disappointed. He doesn’t want to stay here.

How could I help him?, a jungle thought. Once he thought i’m a mess, i’ll be a mess for him forever, she thought.

She stopped helping him after she did but it was getting worst. So a jungle just stay quiet. But when she’s quiet, it scared him more. A boy doesn’t like this situation. He got lost in an ugly place with the silent, what the hell i’m doing here? , he shouted.

“Hey jungle, I want to escape from you. Have you ever thought that you would change to be something else? You shouldn’t live like a jungle, it sucks!” …

Silent from a jungle but in her mind is louding with her voice “I thought to change to be better than a jungle but I couldn’t do it right now. Sorry to make you disappointed to be lost in this ugly place. I don’t know how to help you get out of here. And if you couldn’t get out of this, maybe to think about how to enjoy your life in this ugly jungle is another way out.” She didn’t say that but she thought.

The boy kept saying “What would you do if I’m not here? Being lonely with this mess? Feel sad and suck like this?

The jungle replied in her mind “no, now i’m trying to accept that I am a jungle. It’s hard for me also for a beautiful one became an ugly one who no one wants to stay near. But I couldn’t do anything better. So I have to do everything to safe my life as much as possible, I have to enjoy being this stupit idiot jungle as much as possible … just wishing one day, I would become a beautiful garden again”

I don’t wanna hurt you. But you’re here now. You’re here in a mess. Sorry that I couldn’t help you find the way out. I know it’s hard for you to live your life here and to see a mess jungle like me everyday. I’m hurt enough. If I know the way to let you get out of this, I’ll tell you right now. Because I know it’s better for you to go out from here than stay here with me, she said.

The boy stopped. He heard the jungle said. Maybe she’s right, I’m here and couldn’t get out of her. Why don’t I accept the truth that I have to be here in her jungle. Maybe she didn’t want to be a mess but it’s a mess because she is the jungle. I couldn’t live with it if I have a chance but when I have no chance, why shouldn’t I accept it? , thought a boy.

The jungle kept silent, she shouldn’t speak.

She thought about the day the boy came in. She didn’t tell him to don’t go deep down coz she didn’t think that he’d get lost here. If she knew that he would get lost, if she knew that he would hate here, she would tell him to don’t come in since the first day.

Now she doesn’t know how to do. How beautiful the jungle is, the boy didn’t see. She couldn’t compare with the beautiful garden he met before.

She knew, the boy will not be happy if he has to live here forever. But she didn’t see the way out for him yet. Her destination is to be back to the beautiful flower garden again but it’ll take time and a boy can’t wait. He’ll be suffer so long.

Only one way to help the boy. Only one way to make him get out of here. Only one way to make him happy. Only one way, … is .. to finish this jungle life.

 

Stand by me

Late at night,

Why do some people stay single? Why do some people want to have someone with? To have someone by yourside, not easy like to eat banana. But you have to sacrifice your privacy. Even though you say, nah, we have space, we’re free but that space is not much more than the single one.

I used to be single, after someone broke me up. First moment, I really don’t want to be single. But second thought appeared after 6 months of the end of my love story. I was really wow! Almost three years that I lived life as fun as I could. Didn’t want to have a serious relationship anymore but … my luck was joking on me. As they want to test me at some point. Sending someone who then changed my mind. I stopped playing. I stopped making fun with my life. I heard someone whispering me, “stop”. So I stopped, until now.

Why now? Why this one? Why us? We don’t know. Have you ever being wonder about this? When Mr.A came, you said no, when Mr.B came, you said no, but why when Mr.C came, you said yes. If A-B-C have same profiles, why your heart tell you to stop at Mr.c?

Ever wonder?

Destiny?

For me, maybe yes. Could say that I believe in that. But short destiny or long destiny, depends how you treat each other now.

Love is good but doesn’t mean that your love life will be always good. Today you may be happy but tomorrow you may be sad. But if you are still in love with each other, happy or sad day is the love day for both of you.

Once you choose to have someone comes into your life, yes, life would not easy as it could be anymore. Ask youself, are you ready to sacrifice? If yes, that’s really wonderful but if your answer is no, I’d like you to reconsider, and ask youself again … WHY DO YOU HAVE HIM/HER?

 

* coz you need someone to listen to you?

* to watch a movie with?

* just someone to call or recieve a call from them?

* to have one because most of people have someone – so why don’t you? , right?

* someone to sleep with, to have sex with, just that?

or more than that …  

* to be a friend, good friend, long life friend ..

* to give each other a hug when you both need a warm support

* to have a good companion who you know they never leave you alone and you do the same

* to travel together, beautiful world is waiting for beautiful couples to see

* to smile to while other people don’t wanna see you smile

* to share your happiness moment with

* to listen to when he/she’s in trouble

* to hold  hands when he/she needs a helping hand

* to kiss when you need to share love

* to talk .. when you/he/she feels down

* to make him/her happy

* to trust and to be trust even you are near or far away from each other

* to cook and eat with, how’s nice when someone dare eat your food

* to fight, at least that means he/she is still be by yourside, to fight with you

* to understan even it’s difficult to understand but you’re trying to understand

* to be patient – yeah … two lives are different from one, good to feel calm

* to stay together – forever or at least as long as you could ..

* to love and to be loved … not to hurt each other …

?

When couples have problems, I’m sure they would ask themselves, why?  If you’re confused, just follow your heart. And look at the one who sits in front of you. Why you have him/her?  If the reason is … you just need someone because everyone has someone, so keep your reason with yourself unless you have found the right one.

But if the reason is .. you need someone to share every moment with, then do the best to let him/her knows. Don’t be shy, just show them your love, kindness, caring, understanding and every feeling that you have.

No one knows what’s gonna happen tomorrow. If you have them now, show them now that you love them. Never says “tomorrow I will”. What if you don’t have tomorrow? Never says “he/she already knows” – people are different, for someone, if you don’t say, they don’t know. Instead of keeping your feeling, even it’s hard to express them but remember, the one who’s in front you is the one you love and care so tell them how you feel. Show them how much you care and understand the way they are, if you don’t want to loose them.

girl,

Let him know that you have him because you love and you’re proud and happy to be with him.

 

(boy, same)

 

Smaller than Atom

 

 Atom is the smallest thing of what scientists like to call “matter”.

I am the smallest thing of what people call “world” ..

if I said, to compare, I’m an atom to the world. It’s easy to know that

as everyone is small to the world…

but actually, I think, I’m an atom to something that smaller than the world …

something that is general, something like .. my room

k, i’m an atom to the room ..

not because my room is big

but … because me is small …

why small?

i ask you, what situation can make you feel that You are so small …?

same ..  

And if you’re so small, no one could see you . …

so they step on you easily …

something, for me, Bad luck is stepping on me .. everyday ..

dear atom

The missing piece …

 

say what you want

 

Someone told me Gemini is a liar …

because they’re two .. they’re twist .. they’re mysterious .. they are what they are …

so when Gemini doesn’t lie, does anyone believe?

The fault seems to stay with them since they are gemini but anyone care?

 

…………………………………………..

 

If you don’t trust anyone, no matter are they good or not, you still don’t trust them …

They can’t be trust since you don’t give them a trust ..

So even they are good, you though they cheat

And if one day they cheated, you may say ‘yeah i know that you’re gonna do it’ ..

So do they have any choice ?

 

…………………………………………….

 

It’s not easy to be a good person for someone

as we’re not an angel who has only a good part

but as long as you love them, i know you are trying to do it best

if you lose first chance, try second, if you lose second, try third

one day, they will understand you …

one day, they will believe in you …

and one day, they will give some love back to you …

just don’t give up

as love is not a game

but love is real

 

 

 

No reason

** I love this song. I love the meaning. Wish all of you could understand it, it’s beautiful**

 

You asked me “why” when I said I love you

I don’t know too. I never find the answer

All I know is I’m happy when I’m with you

 

Sometimes it doesn’t has any reason for people to be in love

Maybe they are in love just because of the smiles

But If you still wanna know why?

If I have to find out the reason of my love to you

…………………………………………………………………

I love you because you have a beautiful mind .. that’s so kind for me

 

**that’s the transalation of a Thai song “WHY?”. The original version was sung by Pang Nakarin. Lately one mobile company has covered by the VP of this company, added in their advertisment.

 

 

 

In my life I have done many thing without any reason. But if I have to give a reason to this question, for me the answer is the same as the song.

 

THE VP’s MV. How come he became the singer of his company advertisement.

This guy is the singer.

 

This is the TV commercial of their company.

 

  

 This is the soundtrack of Thai movie, it’s the same song but was sung by Posh Modern Dog. It’s nice also!

 

This is the original version by Pang Nakarin and his guest “Su Boonleang”

 

 

 

 

Panda

Not only because I was called “Panda” or I have 5 panda dolls but this movie is quite nice, gotta make me and everyone laugh!

Kung Fu Panda!

 

one (again)

 

 

 

one by u2

 

Too much

i’d like to say people should have hope, they said “hope” is never die.

but to have hope, we should expect that the hope will come true

but … to expect is a risk, so should we have hope?

 

someone told me, yes have hope but don’t expect.

aren’t they come along?

 

all i could do is just rememeber that i can have hope but don’t expect

and yes, i will, no more expextations even i like the movie Great Expectations

but from now i won’t expect anything at all

 

in my life, i’ve never stolen time from anyone

too much time or a few time, depends how they manage

if they have less time for something,

is it because i steal it from them

or because they just don’t manage it so well?

 

another thing,

if someone said i miss you too much,

have u ever asked them, what does too much mean?

people have a right to miss ‘too much’ or ‘not much’

and too much is the feeling, when missing too much they will expect to recieve something back

but well, if they got ’too much’ back, that’s nice

if no, they hurt

so .. too much can hurt people

so people shouldn’t do ‘too much’ for whatever

just ‘fair’ – that will be fine

but wonder, can we tell people to not ’too much’ ???

can we force any thoughts or feelings?

nah, actually we couldn’t.

But finally they will stop doing ‘too much’ when ‘too much’ hurts them,

just give them a time if u wonder what ‘too much’ means?

because they don’t have any answer, they just feel that it’s ‘too much’

but to not be asked that question again

they need time to decrease ’too much’ to ‘much’ to ‘fair’ then to ‘rare’

by themselves one day

one way or another

 

now everything is more clear

good to know and understand more

if one day i will go for ‘too much’,

this will remind me to not

and i will believe this thought

just not too much,

at least start to not saying it

end up with start to not feeling it ..

… too much

 

 

 

 

 

In the waiting line

I wonder if anyone, even you, you or you, have ever had a deep secret inside about love? If you’re teenager or getting older and older, once in your life time, do you have such an incredible moment?

That moment could be the special moment with someone in the past or even the present one. If now you’re alone, or you’re with your partner but do you have something to keep so deep inside mind?

If you have your love one be by your side, how much you love him/her? How much you care, how much you think you’ll remain? In any second or minute or day, have you ever thought about someone in the past or someone you loved? And was it just a thought that pop up in your mind just a second then disappered or it remained every night and day?

Have you ever had such one time telling youself that ‘i miss him/her, or i still love him/her’ while your’re living with your present? If no, that’s fine but if yes, then have you ever spoken it loud to let your past hear that?

It’s a doubt because … i wonder about why did someone in the past always come back to say something beautiful .. later?  

If you’re with you present lover. Will you be sensitive if one day your past comes and says something like .. ”Always happy when I have a chance to talk to you or just to follow your writing, it’s beautiful to walk with you and to know what are you doing by the letters. No one’s like you. The way you are is the way I always remember. I’m thinking have I made a wrong thing to leave you on that day? Do I lose a good parter? What you see, what you write, what you share, your words to people, becomes the questions to myself - will i lose you forever? I love the way you are, I like the thing you do, I am still in love with you but I don’t know how to do.  I’ll remember you for the rest of my life.  My love for you – remain.”

If someone in the past came to you one day and said that, would you be sensitive and let the wind blow you back there? If he/she was the one who you loved so much but on that day they told you that they don’t want you anymore then today they came back and said that they’re wrong, would you?

I have the past but for me, they’re already passed. Maybe just one second that I thought about but it’s happened when someone talked about them with me. I know myself, I live with the present and I respect my feeling. The one i’m with now is my present and my future. Never look back, just go straight on. Still missing or loving with the passion to the past, that’s not me. Even deep inside could be but if I realize, it’s rare.

I was told, something like that, they came back when they knew i have someone beside. I was thinking, why? My question was only WHY?. But if I need more, could be, what the hell they want from me? It’s like they feel like they’re gonna lose .. me, forever. Yes, now it’s true.  

Two times in my life I was told. I think we can be friends forever but to become a lover again, couldn’t be.

It’s not easy to find the right person for you or for me. How long that we have to wait in the waiting line to meet someone that would be there for us? For me, if you’ve found one even that one is not the perfect one for you but they understand you – you understand them, if they can be themselves not to hide their personality and for you too, that’s perfect enough.

So again, for me, if you have a chance to love and to be loved with them, don’t lose it, no more.

I loved and I was loved from those people who then left me alone with the sadness with just “I don’t want you no more” but one day, when i already have my beloved in my new life, they came back and said “I want you”.

Ridiculous!

Now I have a chance to love and be loved by my beloved one, I will never let anything break our relationship at all. At least, I won’t be the one who breaks it, no, no, no, no more.

What about you?

If you were me, would you do the same?

would you?

or wouldn’t you?